September 30, 2011

The start of a new season

The start of the new quarter and my body combating a flu is definitely a clear message Fall is near.

This quarter has definitely been a rough start, since I decided to end the summer with a bang (that I do not regret). Waking up at 6 A.M. is definitely the earliest I've woken up for class since high school, along with fighting through traffic; with a fever, hot flashes, cold chills and body aches. It's been pretty hellish, but I'm still pushing through. This quarter by far has probably been my most expensive and probably more difficult than my past quarters, but I'm ready to buckle down and do work.

Since school started I've been pretty much been stuck with my head in the clouds, usually spacing out, not really sure what to think. I feel like things are really good right now, but for some reason I sense a bit of panic. I guess I'm trying to go with the flow and trying to embrace how good things are right now. I suppose I'm being kind of pessimistic, even though I'm trying to forget about past patterns and trying to change that kind of negative mind set. There's something really promising about the kind of relationship I'm in at the moment though, because for the first time I don't think I've really been this honest or truly myself around someone I've actually liked- excluding my best girl friends.

Fall 2011, come at me.

September 21, 2011

Seabright Beach | Santa Cruz, Ca

 KN and I decided to beat the heat and headed to Santa Cruz for burgers and ideally an even tan. As with coastal weather, it decided to throw fog in our faces and play us hot 'n' cold (literally). 

We ate at Betty Burgers and it was delicious! Five Guys, who? I even finished my burger, even though I wasn't exactly hungry. That says a lot! Then after our meal, we headed to Seabright Beach away from the touristy traps and typically more garbage ridden shores. The beach was barely occupied with only a few groups here and there, just enough to go people watching. After being caught laughing at our single- serving beach neighbors and sinking into the sand. My day away came to an end, after getting Slurpee's ... obviously!


September 17, 2011

sink me in the river at dawn

As busy as I am with work, it's funny how I still feel like I'm being unproductive and a lingering feeling of void still exists.

Looking back at my past blogs, if there's one thing I've noticed it's been the same pattern every summer. A pattern of heart broken relationships, self destructive behavior and self renewal. It's around this time when I get that funny feeling, a feeling of anticipation to prepare myself for the worst. It's sad to acknowledge that I've let this pattern occur for the past couple of years with just empty intentions of changing my own life.

I feel like it's about time to stray away from this pattern and just buckle down.
"Sometimes you’ve got to let everything go – purge yourself. If you are unhappy with anything … whatever is bringing you down, get rid of it. Because you’ll find that when you’re free, your true creativity, your true self comes out."  -Tina Turner

September 13, 2011

Grilled cheese, banana slices & Barlett pear wedges

Hope everyone is having a great afternoon thus far :-)